Why me, Lord??

As some of you know the Lord has opened up a wonderful oppurtunity for me this month. This is something I've been praying for for years! It blows my mind because He opened up this oppurtunity right after a 6 week period of very little communication with Him and some really big struggles for me. It hit me though that might be exactly why He can send me right now. I feel like I'm a little more humble than where I was months ago. Right now I feel like I'm the last person the Lord should use. I feel like I have so much to work on but then I guess that means I can relate to more people. Instead of me thinking I have it all together right now I'm thinking I'm a huge mess up. Maybe that's where I'm supposed to be. I need the Lord! I don't know what I was thinking for 6 weeks not going to Him, like I can go through a very tough time in my life without Him? Don't think so, Mary. What I really need to remember is it is all Him anyways. It doesn't matter exactly where I am because it's the Holy Spirit going anyways, right? Just got to rely on His power and not my own because I'm not strong enough on my own. Maybe that's what that 6 weeks was there to prove to me in the first place.